MeditationThe power of meditation to feel how my body truly feels. And not to mask pain totally with pain medication.
A fine line, I think.
MedicationYes, I do take pain medication. I am very glad to have them.
After many trails over the years of strong pain relief, I now mainly use very basic medication. The more drastic ones all had me end up living like a zombie, or had too many side effects, which made life more intolerable in different ways. (Note: This is my experience. I am sure that we all have different views on this.)
There are days that I find it important to really see/feel how my body is functioning.
By taking too much pain medication, there is the change that I continually overdo it, because I don't feel the pain which activities are causing. The danger arises that I end up in a vicious circle.
... if that makes sense...?
Preventative pain reliefI do take pain medication in advance of an activity, when I know I simply don't have a choice not to overdo it. Like for travel, or extended outings.
Sometimes I take pain medication when I am in the middle of an activity where there is no choice but to keep going. I can hardly lie down in a shop, or on the street when I can no longer function due to pain or fatigue. The basic Paracetamol seems to work for this to some degree.
In the hospital I was advised to take paracetamol on a routine basis. I followed this advise for the Holland adventures, but am now trying to take less again.
... and dealing with pain after doing too muchOther times I have already grossly overstayed my own welcome in being kind and considerate to my body...
Where I had a friend help me in the garden to do some weeding. She did not mind at all, at all, if I did nothing but observe. But I LOVE being involved in my garden so I did my bit of weeding. Sitting down. But I did too much. I felt ill. In so much pain. I spend the rest of the afternoon on the bench in the garden and on the couch. So, yes. I did dowse myself with pain relief. And yes I did feel a bit better after a few hours. But is that really the answer?
I don't think it is.
|'Wisdom' sculpture by Corina Duyn 2015, background view is in Dzogchen Beara|
So, back to meditationHence I started my day with meditation, to really explore where I am at. How to proceed. How to get back to being well again. Well within illness. Well without putting too many chemicals into my body. Well by listening to my body.
I would like to get back to my routine. To stay within my levels of ability. Which due to the surgery and the 'hospital-Holland-marathon' has taken a good few steps backwards.
I know that for me routine is the key to living well with illness.I need to get back to:
- Pacing my activities:
- Exploring over the next few weeks where my level of ability is at this point in time.
- Establishing my routine again:
- Spend time in Meditation
- To be involved in creative activities and writing
- Connect with nature
- Have social contact at least once a day, in the form of actual meetings, and if that is not possible, than a phone call or skype is great too.
- Do some form of movement, through breathing, yoga, tai chi, or walking.
- Prepare for a Proper sleepWhen things get tough to do a very short healing meditation
- To eat well. To not put the 'wrong fuel in my body'.
- To just be. Be with whatever is happening.
That is my plan.
What is your plan?